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Sunday, December 27th, 2009
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10:53 pm - argh!
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| Friday, December 25th, 2009
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11:25 pm
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| Monday, September 1st, 2008
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12:00 am - himmgf
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so this was a comment on someone else's lj, but it exceeds the limit for comments so here it is in post format. it's the story of how i met my girlfriend michelle! :D
i met her at holly's doctorate party in may, a barbecue in the backyard. apparently michelle was trying to talk to me the whole time, and i thought she was hot, but apparently i wasn't too communicative. who knows, i was drinking, and probably had an ex on my mind at the time.
next time we crossed paths was again via holly, at her going away dinner at a greek restaurant. michelle got there kind of late, and just so happened to sit next to me ;) we kind of clicked a little, but there was no follow through really. but i remember being interested and that she laughed at my jokes :)
finally, when holly was loading up her moving van, i went to help (getting there too late though :/ ). afterwards, we all went to a karaoke night at a baby acapulco's, which michelle does regularly. she greeted me enthusiastically and i sat across from her, and we chatted all night and flirted a little. i had my fancy new camera (35mm canon slr), and most of the pictures somehow had michelle in them :) they're also on myspace, under 'dr. holly is on the lam'. michelle made sure to find out if i was on myspace, and i promised to add her.
so, that i did. we got started talking about the photographs (she wants me to photograph her birthday party in october) and church (i was considering visiting her church because it seems like a lot of cool people go there), and somewhere in there we exchanged numbers. well, a little over a week ago, she texted me, and we ended up getting into a conversation that spanned hours. the next couple of days were similar--i went to a couple of shows, and we were texting all throughout, flirting outrageously. i still wasn't sure whether the flirting was just for fun or not. i did end up visiting her church that sunday, but i was so tired that i didn't even stay the whole time. but the discussion in class that day was about the different elements needed for love--friendship, commitment, sexuality--and that provided fodder for a lot of amusing exchanges later :) mainly about sex of course ;D
that morning i went home and went to bed. i'm working nights so i normally sleep all day, but for some reason i woke up relatively early. we got to texting again and decided to go out for dinner. later she told me that she didn't like what she was wearing and had to buy a shirt for our dinner right then :)
oh! i forgot, the night before, we went to a movie along with heather, and it was okay but not really exciting. i left feeling like she ultimately wasn't that interested. i was driving home, kind of disappointed, when michelle texted me and said, 'want to try that again, this time without the chaperone?' that cheered me right up :)
okay, so dinner sunday at magnolia (a diner in austin similar to kerbey lane). it was great! we sat and talked for three hours or so, got along great, laughed tremendously, agreed on a ton of things, and had a lot of fun. i took some pictures then but they weren't that great :/ finally i had to work, so i walked her out to her van and we stood there and talked a while longer. at one point i kind of leaned in, but then didn't go for the kiss. later she told me that when it happened, she kind of shrunk back, and then immediately thought, 'aw man! i should have kissed him!' but fortunately, that was not the last opportunity :)
one of the things we had talked about was that she wanted to play with my hair -- she's a licensed hair stylist -- so we made plans for a haircut. that was last wednesday. she gave me a nice haircut, which i recorded in time-lapse -- the youtube video is on myspace -- and then we sat down to watch some tv before i went to work. well, one thing led to another, and i ended up skipping work ;)
thursday night, i asked her out, and she was a little startled cause it was out of left field, conversationally, but then she said, 'well, i don't want to share you with anyone else...' :)
so now i have had a long weekend off, and we've had a great time hanging out. that pretty much brings us up to speed! tonight we were at bat-fest -- a festival downtown in austin -- and at one point she said something about, 'next year when we come here...' so yeah, i'm pretty excited :)
how's that for gushing!
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| Wednesday, September 19th, 2007
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5:25 pm - some silly survey
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1. Do you have a tattoo?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Fish?
5. Do you dream in colour?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. How about them hipsters?
8. How did we meet?
9. What's your philosophy on life and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like musicals?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
15. Would you cheat?
16. What are you wearing?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
21. What's your favorite day of the week?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. What was your first impression of me?
26. Have you ever done drugs?
27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
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| Monday, June 18th, 2007
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1:22 am
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well, periodically there's drama in my life, and i obsess over it too much and get sick of it altogether. i make the same mistakes and just feel kind of hopeless over my prospects at being a fully functional complete human being. i know, nobody is perfect, but some people at least do what they believe is right and stick to their guns. why is that so unusual?
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| Thursday, June 7th, 2007
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12:25 am - man
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i can make the right moves for a little while, but eventually i get lazy and start acting just plain dumb.
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| Sunday, April 29th, 2007
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3:07 am
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the internet makes me forget what i'm going to say. while i'm waiting for elljay to load, i go to overcompensating dot com (for example) and thus am distracted from my impending fancy thoughts which i was going to share with the universe.
also, i am not sure if the new homestar runner cartoon is going to make any more sense when i am sober.
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| Friday, April 20th, 2007
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6:27 pm
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so i got a combat card in order to duke it out with shini_tenshi, and they say you are supposed to save it...
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| Thursday, November 16th, 2006
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3:35 am - ugh
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i am such a nervous nelly. -and- a crappy friend, in ways. i sometimes suspect my friends, good people, of acting in ways that i know they're not. i also always want to check on things before i go ahead. even if i know that it doesn't need to be checked, or even if i know it'd be better just to strike while the iron's hot rather than asking the iron, "so, i'm thinking about striking but i'm not sure if this is really what's best. what do you think? get me back to me as soon as you can, mmkay?"
on the other hand, to draw the metaphor out: to learn to smith, you practice and gain experience at it. this requires screwing up some pieces of metal before actually doing things all the way through. so to figure out how to have a relationship, you should screw several up first? this seems unfair to the other people. iron doesn't have feelings.
on the other other hand, i am reminded of something that was recently pointed out to me by my recording instructor. one good way to record drums is to set up just a couple of mics, which will obtain an accurate picture of the drums, and then ask the drummer to "work" the mics. i.e., if he wants to hear a drum louder, he has to hit it harder. if he is not already a really good drummer, this means he'll have to go back and do it repeatedly to get things sounding just right. i have always wanted to do it the other way, by putting microphones all over the place so that adjustments can be made after the fact, but the instructor pointed out that this actually robs the drummer of valuable experience. if he learns what he really sounds like, and that he needs to hit that one drum harder, then he has become a better drummer.
so, i guess that's my long-winded way of saying that bumbling my way through some relationships early on might have helped out the girl, too.
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| Monday, October 30th, 2006
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5:57 am
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ugh! i hate when i am completely wrong about a situation. i am trying to remember when something actually went the way i expected it to.
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| Saturday, July 8th, 2006
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6:16 pm
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beer for breakfast is fun and it tastes good, but it's a bad idea.
the more you know!
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| Thursday, June 8th, 2006
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9:03 pm - ugh
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people are still complicated. or relationships with them are. i still feel like i change too much when i'm talking to somebody. i am still too nice. but at the same time, i'm selfish. i want to talk to this girl, even though i think i shouldn't encourage her. and i'm still not sure that i even have anything to worry about.
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| Sunday, April 9th, 2006
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2:00 pm - ridiculous
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my infatuation with that 70s show is getting ridiculous. last night i actually dreamed that i might laura prepon (the girl that plays donna). does it make it better or worse that i met the actor and not the character? hmm, i guess better, since the character is from the 70s.
a funny aside to this is that i actually think that mila kunis (the girl that plays jackie) is much hotter, but i probably figured that donna is more easy-going and that i could get along with her better.
the saddest part is that after i introduced myself, i told her to call me chuck, and she laughed and said, "chuck... chuck forman."
geez.
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| Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
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4:39 am - i feel like this sort of entry is somewhat artsy
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i have carpal tunnel from using the mouse too much. my elbow hurts.
i miss being naked with someone. the last girl i was naked with, it wasn't even really exciting, because i felt like we didn't really know each other that well.
sometimes, i still miss the first girl i was ever naked with.
i need a new monitor. this one is too dark.
i shouldn't drink more than one beer before bed. that sort of rule makes me feel old.
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| Thursday, March 9th, 2006
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12:46 am - hey!
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hello everyone. this ol' livejournal seems like a good place to post; somebody usually replies. anyway, i just thought i'd say hi to the people in this pseudo-community over here. so, hi!
and, i changed my default, after millions of years of the ol' grey leaf. this picture, of my eyeball and hair, i took with a tiny little digital camera that has since died. i miss that thing, it was handy and neat.
(the grey leaf i stole from bluerobot, who is frozen like a bug in amber. i used to be mopey enough that it felt appropriate; now i am not so much mopey as apathetic.)
it's interesting to look back at these old journal entries. in one i complained that i didn't want to do the band life forever. right now the band life is sounding pretty good :/ which perspective is true? am i really no good at college, or is it just this college, or these classes?
i guess i should explain: the first time that i tried college, right after i graduated high school, i ended up dropping out of most of my classes the second semester. this semester, my second at utsa, i am starting to get apathetic and skip classes. big no! i am quite in debt already, and if i drop out of college i'll have to start paying it back -- not an attractive option at the low-wage fast food job i'd be likely to score.
my old life back in abilene sounds nice right now, lacking from the dangers and complications of having picked up and moved somewhere else and gotten into debt at a college i know nothing about. but this dangerous situation sounded pretty nice compared to my frozen, routine life in abilene at the time.
is the truth just that i am always running away from where i am? i am i just trying to get away from myself?
great. i was cheerful when i started and now i'm back into my old self-doubting ways. thanks, internet!
ahhhh, actually i guess i'm alright. just thinkin' aloud. is that good or bad? you be the judge! dun dun dunnnnn!
yeah, bedtime.
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| Friday, October 21st, 2005
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12:51 am
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| Friday, April 22nd, 2005
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1:31 pm
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this is just a little note to say: i tried to quit the internet, but it didn't work. so, yeah.
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| Sunday, September 12th, 2004
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11:51 pm
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| Sunday, July 18th, 2004
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2:11 am
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i just realized that i don't want to do the band thing forever, at least not with this band.
friend: so, how's the band?
me: oh, you know, working on new stuff, etc.
something about that makes me feel dried up.
so does staying up too late :/
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| Tuesday, June 29th, 2004
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12:52 am
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i am terrible at moving on and accepting the state of things. i always want to behave whichever way is convenient and seems right at the moment. the problem is that "right" keeps changing.
i think right would stand still better if i did what i should more often. that is, it isn't "right" that keeps changing; it's me.
current music: lansing-dreiden - metal on a gun
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